September 26

The first night back after having a few days off is always one of the scariest shows for me. I always fill myself with anxiety and dread that I’ll forget my lines or that something will go wrong and the show won’t be as good for me. I think this is a common feeling because we have been consistently working on a project with no more than a one day break at a time and then we’re coming back to it while in performances after the longest break we’ve had so far. I took some time before the show to release into gravity and take some time for myself, but I still found myself more on edge tonight than I would have liked. I think this was a common feeling tonight and it was also a lower energy show which I think came out of the anxiety some of us were feeling. I also noticed that some of my vocal life and reactions had decreased between weekends, so this is something that I want to look over and revitalize for tomorrow and the remaining performances.