September 21

I feel like I’m getting a little more in a groove with the performances, which are a help to my comfort level, but I want to be cautious that I do not get too comfortable and lack the spontaneity that is required to continue to grow. It has been an incredibly joyous process to share this work with the audience and it still fills me with pride to go out every night and perform knowing how much work I have put into this process. One of the things I have noticed and that I have been struggling with a little bit is the “unscripted-scripted” moments. I have noticed more and more that I am having to develop different moments or dialogue because my previous moments have been showing up among the actors sitting nearest me. Of course, there are only so many things that can be said and it is possible that my saying them in previous nights has nothing to do with them being adopted by other members, but it has been an extra hurdle to navigate coming up with more dialogue on the spot, especially when the dialogue surrounding me in these moments is much louder and what I used to say.